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And so he is gone

Journal Entry: Sun Feb 10, 2013, 9:10 PM


My very beloved doggy passed yesterday, after 17 years, 5 months and 25 days of living. He has been with me longer than anyone else in my life, except my parents and siblings. Not even my fiancée has been with me this long. I haven't stopped crying, I wrote in my last journal that he was making a great recovery but he started suffering complications just hours after I wrote it. I still can't believe what happened. It was very sudden. A friend told me it was easier to loose a pet if they were old because you were already kind of expecting it already. She lied.

My first pet, my longest friend, my eternal playmate, the one that taught me to love and respect animals, the reason I got into animal rescue. When I was 10 I got a soft case of mumps, so I was taken out of school for two weeks and I couldn't see neither my friends nor my siblings. He was my only company for those two weeks. When I was little and still feared monsters and ghosts at night, and later thieves or burglars, having him by my side always gave me reassurance, I knew he would wake me up and protect me, and so he helped me learn how to sleep through the night. When I was a silly teenager he always knew when my heart was broken and comfort me while I cried my heart out. He stayed with me through every cold, migraine or sickness I ever had. When I decided I wanted to be a vegetarian, but before my parents accepted it, I would sneak my meat from my plate to him little by little, my mom never found out what we did until I told her many years later. He was sneaky too.

My mind has been going wild thinking of all the things we went through together this many years. I guess in a way, I want to remember that he was very happy, very loved, and had a great life. As we got older I started dedicating more and more time to tending to his special needs, helping him with the stairs, making sure he eats all his food and enough water, taking him out, accommodating him in his bead, etc. I now feel a huge void at those times. Oka said he's taking me to the shelter to donate a few things we don't need anymore and the money I've been saving up from my Mondkatze commissions, that cheered me up a bit. I'm looking forward to it. Maybe now that we have a little bit of extra room we will be able to rescue a new cat.

Thank you so much to all the people that commented on my past journal, wished us the best and shared your stories. It means a lot to me, and I'm really sorry I can't give you better news. Please kiss and hug all your fur angels for me.

I'm trying to stay busy and optimist. Tomorrow begins our epic Artisan Crafts Week at projecteducate, we have a lot of great things planned so please look up for them! I'm also working on Mondkatze commissions, somehow making homages to other people's pets helps me deal with my own loss, and I got really behind on a few of them and I want to finish them asap. I'm also going to submit things again, I haven't submitted anything new in a couple of weeks.

I think that's everything that I needed to say, I feel a little bit better already. Thank you if you made it this far :heart:


Everything will be all right in the end. If it's not all right, then it's not the end.
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ServantsRequiem Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
aww. I'm sorry. I know this happened almost a month ago, but I've been gone. Big hug thoughts for you my dearest.
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petrova Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist
A bit late but :hug:
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Picajosan Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:( I'm so sorry! I hope you are starting to feel better already, and after all he had a really long and happy life! Major hugs :hug:
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kimchikawaii Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Professional General Artist
Aw, I'm so sorry! I just read this, being eternally behind on dA these days. I'm glad you have such a supportive fiance to help you through, that makes it a little easier.

Hope things are getting better for you.
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17sp02 Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2013  Student General Artist
Don't be sad that it's over, smile because it happened. :) Stay Strong
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floatingWhiteFalcon Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2013
I'm feeling very sorry for you. I hope you'll get over this loss... But it sounds as if he had a very happy time with you, so don't be sad his time has come. And a dog which loves cats and hates other dogs has to be an awesome dog. You had got a gret friend but he can't have lived forever, so don't be upset. It's great that he was that healthy at his age. ^^
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ImaginaryRoses Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine how tough it must be. Keep all those happy memories in mind and keep smiling :) :hug:
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artbylink Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sorry for your loss. my heart and prayers go out to you.
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saren1986 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013
i know how you feel. we lost both our dogs within 6 months of each other. Our border collie went first (october 2011) at the age of 17. we had him for 10 years after his previous owners emigrated to america. Our mutt went in the following march aged 18. We had him from birth (he was born under my bed). You get over it eventually (it takes a while) but you never forget them. they burn themselves onto your heart xxxx
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Reixma Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
"A friend told me it was easier to loose a pet if they were old because you were already kind of expecting it already."
This is a lie! I have seen many an old pet die in our family, and it never gets easier, nor does it feel any different. It still hurts...
I know how you feel, as it happened to us with our dog Kez.

You had time with him which was lovely and those memories will never fade. That is no lie!
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moofestgirl Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I'm so sorry about your puppy! I cried like a baby when our family dog died back in 2007, it was so sad. I feel your pain, and even though some might say "he was only a dog" it hurts when you lose a friend like that. Over time the pain will diminish and you will be left with all the fond memories you shared. :heart: :huggle:
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Fluffydragonpuppy Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013
Aww, sorry for your loss, Talty. I've never had a dog before, but I'm sure that you're really upset. :huggle:
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XPantherArtX Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Omg! :( I am so so sorry. I know how you feel, I've been through this before with my first dog. It is very hard but just tell yourself that he's not suffering anymore and he had a really good and happy life with you! Keep the good memories close, your heart will heal with time. *Hug*
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Shelby-JoJewelry Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
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I'm so sorry, my friend. I know how you feel that way. I had a dog named Breezy that I was that way with and I haven't been attached to another dog like that since. She was really close in age to yours too. Stay on the optimistic side of things and don't be afraid to cry because you love him. It'll get easier after time has passed. What counts now is that you're an amazing person and so active with all the help you've given other fur babies. Feel better!
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marwa15 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
hey dear dont worry dont cry antmore it will be u will find another one :love:
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Tonboko Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013
I'm so sorry to hear this. I think you both blessed each other very much though. It's not every dog that gets to enjoy such a long and happy life, in a warm home with a person that cares so very much for him.
If you do get a rescue kitty, that will be one lucky cat!
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Tallon-1 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
awwwww :sniff: :tighthug::pat:
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starfiregurl26 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013
Ohh honey I'm so sorry to hear that. WOW 17 years?! That's amazing!! Sounds like he had a wonderful life with wonderful people :)
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pinkythepink Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Professional Artisan Crafter
I'm so sorry for your loss :(
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Alliekat-meowmeow Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i know how it feels. i lost my life companion about five four or five years ago- it seems so long ago. He had been in my life since the beginning. stay strong, and remember he good times
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BelovedShadow Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
To have known him for so long, that's amazing. It hurts, but I hope you continue to think of all those wonderful memories of him and now he can watch over you and you fiancee no matter where you go. Good luck with your projects though, and if you need to vent I'm willing to listen (I'm sure you'll be getting this alot becasue we care :) ).
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Debra-Marie Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I'm so sorry :( At least he got to stay with you as long as he could. One comfort you should have is that he doesn't have to live with pain anymore.

If you need anything at all, let me know.
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Debra-Marie Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Seriously, anything.
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KV-Arts Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
:huggle: I'm sorry to hear that he has passed. :( Better that he has had a long and loving life than one cut far too short (our puppy died of Parvo). I can tell that any animal is lucky when they find you. :hug:
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Lunaterasu Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013
Oh my god, D: I'm so sorry. :(
It's always sad when pets leave this world...
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ElreniaGreenleaf Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh I'm so sorry for your loss! :( People who go 'oh but it's just a pet' know nothing - when they've been with you that long they're family, irrespective of species. :heart:
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MiyukiUchiha Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:( I'm soooo sorry for the lost :( really. Hugs from the distance
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SqueekSquirrel Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013   General Artist
Aww hun, sorry to hear you lost a friend. T-T
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ciscobuddy Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013
So sorry to hear of the loss of a dear friend. Maybe you can take comfort in knowing he is no longer suffering.
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Trollsngoblins Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
My sympathies and codoleances. =(
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PichLechuga Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist
Mis condolencias
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Silvame Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013
I'm so sorry for your loss, hope you'll get better. But since he was suffering, u should feel relief as now he's in peace and free from all illness and pain. He may not here in this world anymore but he'll always be in your heart.
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Sugarfloss9 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist
I'm so sorry to hear that. :cry: I hope you feel better soon.
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lilsweetmandee Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013
What a sweet story (i giggled reading the part of him helping you sneak the meat off of your plate).... he was lucky to have you and you him.. I am deeply sorry for your loss. It is never easy to lose family... but he would be grateful to know that you have his beautiful story to tell.
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UnicornReality Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I am sorry. The heartbreak you feel from any loved one is horrendous. But you must grieve and in time you will be able to look back and cherish the time you had. <3
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Dinos4Breakfast Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I had a rottweiler named Amie... she had the most expressive eyes. She would never hurt a thing, even when it would hurt her. She loved basketballs. She died a couple years ago... it took me so long to look at her picture without tearing up. I know it hurts... but great dogs like that are always with us in our hearts.
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Thiefoworld Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013
:hug: Definitivamente es difícil perder una mascota, porque en verdad se convierten en parte de la familia :(
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Tenten9622 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Awww, I'm really sorry to hear that :c
I lost my dog 1 or 2 years ago (I don't want too count the years properly 'cause it will make me feel worse.) Though it was expected, she was old and sick...and couldn't eat anymore :c I still miss her, but I know she's still with me, watching over me.
I hope you will feel better, I'm sure he had a happy and amazing life, having a loving family. ^^
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The-Lost-Hope Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Student General Artist
I'm so sorry he's gone. I remember when I lost my pet smoke who was a hamster. I got him right after we moved to the house we live in now. I was ten when we got him, I lost him 6 and a half years later. Its been a while since but every hamster like him pulls my heart, and makes me love them more. He was my secret keeper and my buddy, so I know your loss a little. Maybe that new cat you get will help, I know I have 2 cats now one I got while he was alive the other later.
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BuckleberryRanch Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013   General Artist
I'm so sorry to hear about your doggy. :( I can't imagine what you are feeling. If there's anything at all I can do for you, please feel free to message me!!
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iWalkBesideYou Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Student General Artist
I am so sorry for your loss D:
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waterdancer Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Student General Artist
Its never easy losing a loved one. :< feel better.
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TheGalleryOfEve Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ohh my dear Talty!!! :iconsadhugplz: ... I'm so sorry for the loss dear, and at the same time so happy for the fact that you guys have given that beautiful angel such a good life!!! :love: For a dog to live so long, it means that you must have given all your heart to him!!! :love: ... I had a beautiful pet like that, she lived until she was 16, and like you ... I have a MOUNTAIN of beautiful moments together, that I can re-live in my heart every time I want!!! :iconflyingheartsplz::aww::iconflyingheartsplz: ... So, I hope you can rescue another one of those beloved life companions, because they all have an endless supply of love inside of them to share with us, my dear Talty!!! :tighthug:

So, I'm sad for the news, but happy for the fact that you too have had this privilege of feeling what completely-selfless love is!!! :iconflyingheartsplz::aww::iconflyingheartsplz:
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Nikiptc18 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Student General Artist
I wish I had seen your other journals. I'm so sorry.
My bunny passed away a while ago too, he was my first pet that wasn't a fish. He was with our family for only a year and a half, but I got so attached to him. He was like my kid. I regret it so much waiting until the moring to take him to the vet. I'm happy you had that chance.
I'm not trying to bum you out with another sad story, but I do know how you feel. You can talk to me if you need someone.
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E-Dantes Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013
Tu amiga no mintió, simplemente las pérdidas las sentimos de forma diferente. Para tí, habría dolido igual si esto hubiera ocurrido en cualquier momento de tu vida.
No sé qué decir, no soy buena consolando. Sólo sé que aunque duela mucho ahora, tu perrito está en un buen lugar, ya no le duele nada y está tranquilo. Tiene la satisfacción de haber sido tu mejor amigo y se lleva la felicidad de haberte conocido y que lo quisieras tanto. También tú fuiste muy afortunada de tenerlo en tu vida, llora todo lo que necesites y luego sonríe cuando lo recuerdes :hug:
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TheLizardLover Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm so sorry for your loss, come the 22nd of this month one of my lizards will have been dead for 5 years, and I have to tell you, the sadness never goes away. I know reptiles are less cuddly than mammals, but I love my lizards as much as my dog.
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Nameda Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Professional General Artist
:cuddle: I am there with you always remember hes waiting for you on the other side of the rainbow bridge and he is all young and healthy again :hug: Thanks for sharing tidbits from your time together he must have been a wonderful companion :heart:
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maytel Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013
Oh ^Talty I'm crying so much for your loss right now :hug:
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Ginger-PolitiCat Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Professional Artisan Crafter
So very sorry to hear this :'( I understand the pain. My childhood kitty was with us for almost 20 years when we had to have her put down...that was 4 years ago...I still cry about it :'(
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